Thinking.... Because I have Writers Block for my Paper...

Just some thoughts that I have been thinking on. 


Romans 8.31-39
 ³¹What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? ³²He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things? ³³Who shall bring any charge against God’s elect? It is God who justifies. ³⁴Who is to condemn? Christ Jesus is the one who died—more than that, who was raised— who is at the right hand of God, who indeed is interceding for us. ³⁵Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or danger, or sword? ³⁶As it is written,
   "For your sake we are being killed all the day long;
   we are regarded as sheep to be slaughtered."
 ³⁷No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. ³⁸For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, ³⁹nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.
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Psalm 56

In God I Trust

 ¹ Be gracious to me, O God, for man tramples on me;
   all day long an attacker oppresses me;²my enemies trample on me all day long,
   for many attack me proudly.³When I am afraid,
   I put my trust in you.⁴In God, whose word I praise,
   in God I trust; I shall not be afraid.
   What can flesh do to me? ⁵All day long they injure my cause;
   all their thoughts are against me for evil.⁶They stir up strife, they lurk;
   they watch my steps,
   as they have waited for my life.⁷For their crime will they escape?
   In wrath cast down the peoples, O God!
 ⁸You have kept count of my tossings;
   put my tears in your bottle.
   Are they not in your book?⁹Then my enemies will turn back
   in the day when I call.
   This I know, that God is for me.¹⁰In God, whose word I praise,
   in the LORD, whose word I praise,¹¹in God I trust; I shall not be afraid.
   What can man do to me?
 ¹²I must perform my vows to you, O God;
   I will render thank offerings to you.¹³For you have delivered my soul from death,
   yes, my feet from falling,
that I may walk before God
   in the light of life.


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Mmm... This makes me really happy. For a lot of reasons. Several of them are due to what is currently happening in my life. Since the Beginning of March, my life has FLIPPED. Literally. I really... yeah. Looking back on my life, all of my journal entries.... Even this Blog... I'm just really surprised at the fact that... I'm growing up. This is a surprise. Who would have thought I would have grown up in College!?!?!?!?!? (end of Sarcasm), but really now, I'm totally serious about the "I'm surprised about growing up". It's more... how I'm going about it. 


Honestly, I've realized how much more flexible I am becoming, and how much more I realize how... important each moment of each day is. Everything can change in a instant. I've learned this... over and over and over again the past month. Everything we do effects something or someone else. Our lives truly are a domino effect. 


I've often disregarded this, but looking over old journal entries have opened my eyes. A simple thing of being somewhere you normally are not can change everything. I didn't truly realize how much "the little things" really effect our daily routine. Walking a different path, getting up at a different hour, what devotions you read in the morning, where you sit in a class room, the looks you and your friend exchange, the simple things such as grammar and punctuation which can change the entire structure of a sentence, and if forgotten, can end in massive private jokes, and a few other mindless things such as that. 


So in other words change is good. Personally I never think about the fact that people are watching me. I know several people know that I have been in... a Spiritual battle, so to speak. I didn't realise that through my blind stumblings, and my mistakes, I would be a light to others. I also never realised how much good change in other people can effect my entire attitude. Oh my life! WOW. It's crazy. Personally I love watching people grow in their faith, and I know for a fact that even though these people are watching me, their growth is a result of God opening their eyes/ 


So now for the Scripture. I found that these two Passages have been... my minor lifeline for the past month. 


The first is just a reminder. I have (and I've posted a few times about this) been to the breaking point again and again. There have been times when I just want to give up, because I can't see how much trial, pain and hurt is worth what I am being... mmm.... molded to do for the rest of my life. Yesterday, (well technically at 1 this morning) I realized why. But that is for me to know, and you to find out on your own. 


The second is also a reminder. I seemed to have moved off on one fear and moved onto another. Again I realised yesterday that no matter what, God still hold me in his arms. Flesh can do nothing to me. Honestly... the worst they could do is kill me... and I wouldn't really have a problem with that. Not that I'm walking around asking for a death wish, but seriously. My reputation is worth nil after I depart from this world, My family, though my lifeline, know Christ as well, so that is not a worry for me. Stuff...is stuff, is stuff. So that doesn't matter. So there is a general reality of the fact that... I have nothing to lose and everything to gain. 


Now that I've gone on a completely morbid schpeil on death, I'm going to end on a... somewhat happy note. 


God is at work, and he's using my trials to shape the world... Makes it all worth it. 


Katydid out.