My [second] Freshman year in a Nutshell.

So as we come upon the close of yet another sentence in the story of my life, I'm trying to describe this past year.

1 year ago I finished up my first year of college.

What has changed since then?

Life.

In 10 days I go back to my roots.

I'm terrified and excited at the same time. This has been... wow. This year has been crazy.

I'm going to attempt a word picture of these past two semesters.

New chances, choices, adventures, tears, cliff jumping, headaches, trials, temptations, baby steps, trying to cope, learning to stand up, getting a backbone, healing, anger, experience, Old testament, mistakes, corrections, surrender, the discovery of hatred for counseling, a found love of theology, a hunger for knowledge, the promise of the future, the idea and definition of Trust and Faith, McMath, New Testament, hysteria, Jack & Zoe, popcorn, fasting, worship, prayer, God, learning, loving my enemies, seeing people for who they are, dropping the plastic, learning who I am, watching real love, discovering my passions, new feelings, terror, the realization that I have both been not thinking enough of myself and too much at the same time, the realization of how small I really am,  the reality and power of Jesus Christ, raw despair, laughter, hope, Dr. Orr, learning to breathe, rooftop experiences, homework questions, puzzles, texting, chats, whipped cream, rest, peace, light, the reality of evil, God's love, grace and mercy, Schnieder, wind storms, gathering thunder, rain on skin, joy, talents, teaching, questions, printer issues, the definition of a geek, a tortured rabbit, lo mein, sinkholes, movies, leverage, reality, the power of eyes, the windows of the soul, learning how to cope, church history, Ophelia, late nights, sunrises and sunsets, not avoiding the eggshells, enjoying new friends, trying to say no, starry nights, memories, bitter and sweet goodbyes and hello's, learning to trust people again, the definition of a geek, realising sleep isn't for me, fish, conspiracy theories, silent haters, being ambushed, Kris White, how much I hate surprises, questions that don't need answering and spiritual gifts.
...just learning me.

Well... that's as close as I can get. I hope this gives you an idea.

~Katydid out.

TWITTERPATED!

Well what can I say? 


My friend and I tried to go through Disney's Animated Classics from the beginning. one of the movies is Bambi. 


For those of you that follow oldschool Disney you will know this movie very well. In the end-ish part of the movie there is a Scene about being "twitterpated"


Flower: [about two birds fluttering around] Well! What's the matter with them? 
Thumper: Why are they acting that way? 
Friend Owl: Why, don't you know? They're twitterpated. 
Flower, Bambi, Thumper: Twitterpated? 
Friend Owl: Yes. Nearly everybody gets twitterpated in the springtime. For example: You're walking along, minding your own business. You're looking neither to the left, nor to the right, when all of a sudden you run smack into a pretty face. Woo-woo! You begin to get weak in the knees. Your head's in a whirl. And then you feel light as a feather, and before you know it, you're walking on air. And then you know what? You're knocked for a loop, and you completely lose your head! 
Thumper: Gosh, that's awful.
 Flower: Gee whiz. 
Bambi: Terrible! 
Friend Owl: And that ain't all. It could happen to anyone, so you'd better be careful. [points at Bambi] It could happen to you…[points at Thumper]… or you, or even...[Flower looks at Owl shyly] Yes, it could even happen to you! 
Thumper: Well, it's not gonna happen to me. 
Bambi: Me neither. 
Flower: Me neither. 


Long story short... they all end up that way. It's actually rather humorous. 


That is my nonsense post. 


Katydid out. 

Love?

1 Corinthians 13

The Way of Love

 ¹If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. ²And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. ³ If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing. ⁴Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant ⁵or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; ⁶it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. ⁷Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
 ⁸Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away.⁹For we know in part and we prophesy in part, ¹⁰but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away. ¹¹When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up childish ways. ¹²For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known.
 ¹³So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.
~


So I'm being really challenged by this right now. Why? Because of these verses:


Luke 6.27
 ²⁷"But I say to you who hear, Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you.


Matthew 5.44
⁴⁴But I say to you, Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you,


Okay, this is not fun. Recently I've been becoming aware of the fact that I am... a topic of conversation around my school. More then once in the past week, I've come across groups of people and I hear things about myself that I probably shouldn't. 


It's been really hard. Because I did nothing wrong. The problem is to complicated to go into over this though. 


But it's not going to stop. And because of this, there is a lot of... tension. I've been withdrawing from most people at school and even in my house because I don't know who else is verbalizing this about me. I don't understand what I did that was so awfully devastating that me getting completely shredded is necessary. 


What's really upsetting is I go to a Bible College. Why are we just as bad as a Highschool?


Yes I said that. I think it's so ridiculous for the "populars" to blast the "nomads" just because of some attention is not getting pulled their way. 


I've posted before on my opinion of Populars at the end of this post (http://katydidsings.blogspot.com/2010/04/things-are-in-air.html) but now I have a new aspect on them. 


I don't understand. Can someone please explain this to me? Can someone please tell me what I did wrong? 


And I'm called to LOVE these people. These people who are judging me, ruining my reputation, making up their own personality for me... they don't even know my name. And I'm called to LOVE them... read those verses again. I am striving. Now, my biggest challenge right now is that even though I am the "hot gossip topic" I'm going to do everything I can to love the populars with 1 Corinthians 13 Love. 


Oh boy... *sigh* this is not going to be fun. 


I'll keep you posted. 


~Katydid Out. 

Life is a Vapor...

In 29 days I will be on a plane for my other home...

27 days until my last day of my (secondish) Freshman year of College.

Wow, things have changed.

I can't even do into the stories of things that have just completely changed my life.

I'm learning that Life just goes at you faster with each passing day.

Time for a new Adventure. :)

Katydid out.