I hate looking into peoples eyes (and I got this growing up) and just seeing "You aren't so special... why do you get (insert whatever you wish here). Most people (especially girls) do not disguise jealousy well at all. It's so tough. It's almost like they show you how jealous they are on purpose.
Now, I'm no saint. Pretty much all I usually think is along the lines of "Very mature. Very. I'm so impressed with our cultures selfishness and how it has completely consumed even our Christian Culture. That give me LOADS of hope for the future. Good job world." You get the idea. I have been very blessed with not being plagued with jealousy. But I am plagued other ways... so I'm really no better off then anyone else. But I still complain.
I just really am astounded by how many people don't want to disguise the fact that they want what someone else has, but they aren't willing to do anything about what they have. Then they get all upset, because they realize that what they have is falling apart, then they wonder why and dare to think that if they had (insert word here) things would be SO much BETTER.
Tend to your own, dang it. God has given us all very different aspects and paths to walk, don't get all offended because what you want isn't what you got, and someone else got what you wanted. Good night, it makes me mad.
But here is the problem. I can't handle this. As much as I can pretend I don't see what is always surrounding me, I cannot hold up against it. And I couldn't figure out why... and I was looking in my concordance and my dictionary and this is what I found.
From the Dictionary:
jealous
adjective
feeling or showing envy of someone or their achievements and advantages
• feeling or showing suspicion of someone's unfaithfulness in a relationship
• fiercely protective or vigilant of one's rights or possessions :
• (of God) demanding faithfulness and exclusive worship
Proverbs 6:3 For jealousy makes a man furious,and he will not spare when he takes revenge.
Proverbs 27:4 Wrath is cruel, anger is overwhelming, but who can stand before jealousy?
Acts 13:45 But when the Jews saw the crowds, they were filled with jealousy and began to contradict what was spoken by Paul, reviling him.
Romans 13:13 Let us walk properly as in the daytime, not in orgies and drunkenness, not in sexual immorality and sensuality, not in quarreling and jealousy.
1 Corinthians 3:3 for you are still of the flesh. For while there is jealousy and strife among you, are you not of the flesh and behaving only in a human way?
James 3:13-17 Who is wise and understanding among you? By his good conduct let him show his works in the meekness of wisdom. But if you have bitter jealousy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast and be false to the truth. This is not the wisdom that comes down from above, but is earthly, unspiritual, demonic. For where jealousy and selfish ambition exist, there will be disorder and every vile practice. But the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, open to reason, full of mercy and good fruits, impartial and sincere.
Who is wise and understanding among you? By his good conduct let him show his works in the meekness of wisdom. But if you have bitter jealousy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast and be false to the truth. This is not the wisdom that comes down from above, but is earthly, unspiritual, demonic. For where jealousy and selfish ambition exist, there will be disorder and every vile practice. But the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, open to reason, full of mercy and good fruits, impartial and sincere.
Who is wise and understanding among you? By his good conduct let him show his works in the meekness of wisdom. But if you have bitter jealousy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast and be false to the truth. This is not the wisdom that comes down from above, but is earthly, unspiritual, demonic. For where jealousy and selfish ambition exist, there will be disorder and every vile practice. But the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, open to reason, full of mercy and good fruits, impartial and sincere.
Who is wise and understanding among you? By his good conduct let him show his works in the meekness of wisdom. But if you have bitter jealousy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast and be false to the truth. This is not the wisdom that comes down from above, but is earthly, unspiritual, demonic. For where jealousy and selfish ambition exist, there will be disorder and every vile practice. But the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, open to reason, full of mercy and good fruits, impartial and sincere.
Who is wise and understanding among you? By his good conduct let him show his works in the meekness of wisdom. But if you have bitter jealousy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast and be false to the truth. This is not the wisdom that comes down from above, but is earthly, unspiritual, demonic. For where jealousy and selfish ambition exist, there will be disorder and every vile practice. But the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, open to reason, full of mercy and good fruits, impartial and sincere.
Who is wise and understanding among you? By his good conduct let him show his works in the meekness of wisdom. But if you have bitter jealousy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast and be false to the truth. This is not the wisdom that comes down from above, but is earthly, unspiritual, demonic. For where jealousy and selfish ambition exist, there will be disorder and every vile practice. But the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, open to reason, full of mercy and good fruits, impartial and sincere.
Who is wise and understanding among you? By his good conduct let him show his works in the meekness of wisdom. But if you have bitter jealousy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast and be false to the truth. This is not the wisdom that comes down from above, but is earthly, unspiritual, demonic. For where jealousy and selfish ambition exist, there will be disorder and every vile practice. But the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, open to reason, full of mercy and good fruits, impartial and sincere.
Who is wise and understanding among you? By his good conduct let him show his works in the meekness of wisdom. But if you have bitter jealousy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast and be false to the truth. This is not the wisdom that comes down from above, but is earthly, unspiritual, demonic. For where jealousy and selfish ambition exist, there will be disorder and every vile practice. But the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, open to reason, full of mercy and good fruits, impartial and sincere.
That second verse (from Proverbs) is my problem. Actually all of them are, but that isn't the point. Who can stand against Jealousy? Mm. I know I can't. I'm learning that. I thought that one person was tough enough. Not really.
So again, I'm left with a lot of questions.. and no answers. *sigh*
Well, God works everything out to His glory, even if I don't see what he is doing. :/ The problem once again is... Waiting. :p Lovely.
Katydid out.
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