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As I think of all the lessons I've learned here so far at Moody, one specifically jumps out at me. It wasn't taught in a classroom, and it wasn't learned in a textbook. This is possibly one of the most interesting things I have even experienced, this could be the best piece of advice I can offer you as a freshman.
Here it is. God is cynical, ironic, and has a sick sense of humor. How so? It's a situation I have started to call “Delicious Irony” because I think God just eats it up. Honestly, the closer I get to God, the more I see this just echoing in my life. God must never get bored though, because he most certainly have more fun with this in my life, let alone the other 7 billion people on the planet.
So how exactly did I figure out this bit of wisdom? Through PRAYER. Yeah, I know. Last semester, I made the mistake of telling God that I wanted Him to shape me His way. I wanted to learn how to say “not my will but yours be done Father”. How is that a mistake? You'll see. Looking back if I had remembered that Jesus said that the night before He was crucified, maybe I wouldn't have asked it.
So God decided He was going to put these utterly confusing situations into action. I would pray this every night, and every day He would throw it back in my face, taunting me. I ate my own words quite a bit during the last semester, and even in this one. First God decided to say, “I'm going to put you in this really awkward situation, because I think it's a good lesson, and hilariously funny. Now, you have to trust me to get out of it...” Repeat about 800 times. I would pray about a situation, class, test, day, and God would almost rub it in my face. It would go very well... and then one thing would happen. Poof! Happiness gone. I could almost imagine Him grinning like a 7 year old who has made up the elaborate scheme that He knows is going to work. I was brought to my knees more then once this past semester. And every night I would ask myself “God what are you doing to my life?” Then He would respond, almost maniacally with “Exactly what you asked me too...I am shaping you to say MY will be done.” It was like He twisted my prayers to make them turn out rather funnily awkward for his own amusement.
Now to some of you my theory may seem to put God in a bad light. After all Cynical isn't exactly one of the words we think of when we think of our God.
The truth is, I think that just makes it possibly in even more in His character. If you allow God to meddle, He WILL meddle. But here is the thing that makes this all better. Even when it seems like my “mistake”. Now why did I define that as a mistake? Well, I didn't really mean it. And God challenged me physically, mentally, emotionally and every other “ly” word you would think of. God has a sense of humor. Looking back at my life, and the situations that have lead me to where I am now... are absolutely ironic.
God has taken a 16 year old girl who didn't: want to go into ministry, never wanted to leave the East Coast, go overseas for missions, couldn't stand Middle school students, and never wanted to go to college. EVER. Now I'm an 18 years old, who has fallen head over heels in love with the West Coast, in my 2nd year of college (yet still a freshman :P), is now working toward a degree in Youth Ministry, so that she can work with Middle school students, and has been overseas 3 times now, with the offer of a summer internship working with youth in Northern Ireland.
What could be more ironic then that? But what makes this so “Delicious” as I stated earlier, is while this whole mess was going on, God was showing me choices I had never even allowed to enter my mind. There are so many stories behind what lead me to where I am now. So where does that leave us then? I'm going to be cliché, and post what I have written on my facebook about me section.
I have learned God loves Delicious Irony, so be careful when you pray, because he will answer your prayers...but not the way you'd expect...it's much, much better. Even though it seems rather heartless at the time, God has a sense of humor. And even though sometimes it seems sick, and confusing, and cynical, (which is is) He mold our hearts...with Irony.
~ Katydid out.
As I think of all the lessons I've learned here so far at Moody, one specifically jumps out at me. It wasn't taught in a classroom, and it wasn't learned in a textbook. This is possibly one of the most interesting things I have even experienced, this could be the best piece of advice I can offer you as a freshman.
Here it is. God is cynical, ironic, and has a sick sense of humor. How so? It's a situation I have started to call “Delicious Irony” because I think God just eats it up. Honestly, the closer I get to God, the more I see this just echoing in my life. God must never get bored though, because he most certainly have more fun with this in my life, let alone the other 7 billion people on the planet.
So how exactly did I figure out this bit of wisdom? Through PRAYER. Yeah, I know. Last semester, I made the mistake of telling God that I wanted Him to shape me His way. I wanted to learn how to say “not my will but yours be done Father”. How is that a mistake? You'll see. Looking back if I had remembered that Jesus said that the night before He was crucified, maybe I wouldn't have asked it.
So God decided He was going to put these utterly confusing situations into action. I would pray this every night, and every day He would throw it back in my face, taunting me. I ate my own words quite a bit during the last semester, and even in this one. First God decided to say, “I'm going to put you in this really awkward situation, because I think it's a good lesson, and hilariously funny. Now, you have to trust me to get out of it...” Repeat about 800 times. I would pray about a situation, class, test, day, and God would almost rub it in my face. It would go very well... and then one thing would happen. Poof! Happiness gone. I could almost imagine Him grinning like a 7 year old who has made up the elaborate scheme that He knows is going to work. I was brought to my knees more then once this past semester. And every night I would ask myself “God what are you doing to my life?” Then He would respond, almost maniacally with “Exactly what you asked me too...I am shaping you to say MY will be done.” It was like He twisted my prayers to make them turn out rather funnily awkward for his own amusement.
Now to some of you my theory may seem to put God in a bad light. After all Cynical isn't exactly one of the words we think of when we think of our God.
The truth is, I think that just makes it possibly in even more in His character. If you allow God to meddle, He WILL meddle. But here is the thing that makes this all better. Even when it seems like my “mistake”. Now why did I define that as a mistake? Well, I didn't really mean it. And God challenged me physically, mentally, emotionally and every other “ly” word you would think of. God has a sense of humor. Looking back at my life, and the situations that have lead me to where I am now... are absolutely ironic.
God has taken a 16 year old girl who didn't: want to go into ministry, never wanted to leave the East Coast, go overseas for missions, couldn't stand Middle school students, and never wanted to go to college. EVER. Now I'm an 18 years old, who has fallen head over heels in love with the West Coast, in my 2nd year of college (yet still a freshman :P), is now working toward a degree in Youth Ministry, so that she can work with Middle school students, and has been overseas 3 times now, with the offer of a summer internship working with youth in Northern Ireland.
What could be more ironic then that? But what makes this so “Delicious” as I stated earlier, is while this whole mess was going on, God was showing me choices I had never even allowed to enter my mind. There are so many stories behind what lead me to where I am now. So where does that leave us then? I'm going to be cliché, and post what I have written on my facebook about me section.
I have learned God loves Delicious Irony, so be careful when you pray, because he will answer your prayers...but not the way you'd expect...it's much, much better. Even though it seems rather heartless at the time, God has a sense of humor. And even though sometimes it seems sick, and confusing, and cynical, (which is is) He mold our hearts...with Irony.
~ Katydid out.
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