So this is me on my soap box. I'm not trying to offend anyone but this is something that has been on my heart this entire semester. But, no one reads my ranting anyways, so hopefully this just goes into the "internet void" and I never hear anything about this subject again.
I was sitting in Chapel yesterday, and I was watching all the people sitting around me. Some were raising their hands, some were standing still, some were sitting, and some were leading worship. at first I rejoiced at the cooperate worship. Then a dark thought, that is always at the back of my mind came rearing it's ugly head.
How much of this is real? How many of us are really worshiping and how much is just an act? Are the people leading worship really into this or is it all just a show? are all the people raising their hands judging the ones that aren't and vice versa? Is the person who dances every song really meaning it? Is there anything beyond the surface?
I mean here I am worshiping, and I have this terrible feeling that there might be something much deeper here. and I want to say something, but I feel that I can't.
HOW MANY OF US FEEL LIKE I DO? THAT THIS WHOLE THING IS A FAKE?
Maybe it's only me, but I feel that more people are pretending that they are okay, and they are standing in chapel and their hearts are breaking. They are falling apart on the inside and putting up their masks. How many more have to pretend? Why can't we all be honest with each other? This IS a christian school for heavens sake....
Why can't we say when people ask us how we are say "honestly... i'm struggling..."
Why can't we be real?
Katydid out.
I was sitting in Chapel yesterday, and I was watching all the people sitting around me. Some were raising their hands, some were standing still, some were sitting, and some were leading worship. at first I rejoiced at the cooperate worship. Then a dark thought, that is always at the back of my mind came rearing it's ugly head.
How much of this is real? How many of us are really worshiping and how much is just an act? Are the people leading worship really into this or is it all just a show? are all the people raising their hands judging the ones that aren't and vice versa? Is the person who dances every song really meaning it? Is there anything beyond the surface?
I mean here I am worshiping, and I have this terrible feeling that there might be something much deeper here. and I want to say something, but I feel that I can't.
HOW MANY OF US FEEL LIKE I DO? THAT THIS WHOLE THING IS A FAKE?
Maybe it's only me, but I feel that more people are pretending that they are okay, and they are standing in chapel and their hearts are breaking. They are falling apart on the inside and putting up their masks. How many more have to pretend? Why can't we all be honest with each other? This IS a christian school for heavens sake....
Why can't we say when people ask us how we are say "honestly... i'm struggling..."
Why can't we be real?
Katydid out.
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