Dear God...

So in the past 24 hours my faith has completely been so ridiculously blown away, everything I thought I believed in has pretty much come down to this simple fact.

When it comes to God, don't expect anything.

Maybe there is another facet to this that I'm missing, but right now I would say that this has been one thing that God has really been hammering into my brain for the past few month.

Have no expectations. Hope... but if hope turns into expectations then don't have hope.

I've been debating about what exactly comes down to the two, and yet again I'm looking to my dictionary:

Hope-hope |hōp|
noun
1 a feeling of expectation and desire for a certain thing to happen
• a person or thing that may help or save someone
• grounds for believing that something good may happen
2 a feeling of trust.
verb [ intrans. ]
want something to happen or be the case
• [with infinitive ] intend if possible to do something


expectation |ˌekspekˈtā sh ən|
noun
a strong belief that something will happen or be the case in the future
• a belief that someone will or should achieve something

Just thinking about how ridiculous this actually is. You can't really have one without the other? What? My dictionary is wrong??? The world is coming to an end... or maybe they have part of it right.

How so? #2 under hope.

That's what God calls for us. if we have expectations then it's almost like we treat God like a puppet. We just have him do whatever we want (which is the farthest thing from the truth) and He gives to us abundantly.

So under what reality are we living? under what definition of hope????