Haha, So two posts in one day... Feel blessed internet. the only reason is I have no homework this weekend. So instead of wasting time on facebook, I am blogging. Oh boy...
Long story short. Today was eventful. 2010 has thrown some things my way that I never expected. Or, I should say, I sort of wished wouldn't happen.
For lack of a better way of putting it, I was reduced to my knees today as I realized that every plan we have, every idea, every inkling we even dream about what we think is going to be could be wrong.
I realized that everything I think I know, (and I even mentioned this earlier today ((oh the Irony))) is nothing.
Rev 3:7 And to the angel of the church in Philadelphia write: 'The words of the holy one, the true one, who has the key of David, who opens and no one will shut, who shuts and no one opens.
I'll admit it, I hate change. Well that's not true. I hate change when it seems like everything is going perfectly well, and then you hit a brick wall.
I don't care what anyone says, remove someone who has made an impact on your life, someone in that circle you have, and the whole group is no longer the same.
Personally I will never understand what God is saying when He shuts a door. Hindsight my be 20/20, but I look back now, and all I want to do is kick myself. can I understand God through any of this????
No. And I don't really want to. I know that I have to say thank you for my brokenness, because it led me to where I stand now, change, because without it, we can never realize what we have... or something that could be even better, and trials, because they bring the two others together.
This is going to be my hardest adventure to date. I realize that. But thankfully, I have some of the best people to spend it with for the next four months.
Things may never be the same... but just as C.S. Lewis/Aslan so wisely said... "things never happen the same way twice."
Katydid out.
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